Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Buzz Buzz Buzz

So much is buzzing around in my brain that I thought I should make a bullet point list of some of them.

  • There are a few bloggers out there that need me to earn about one extra zero on the end my salary so I can live a fantasy or two.  Fucking economy!?  Get better already.  Ok, maybe they don't need me, as much as I want them. 
  • My body is nursing two injuries now and I need them to be healed quickly.  One of them, my shoulder, is keeping me from my routine at the gym, and I feel gross.  And my knee is keeping from doing my basketball - cardio thing.  I need the healing angel to come and come quickly.   
  • I'm living two worlds right now.  One is still in AM and about to begin a new journey with someone new.  The other is dabbling in some "single" dating life meeting hot girls on normal web-sites like Plenty of Fish or Match.  Let's hope those two worlds don't ever get mixed up.
  • All around me I see beautiful women, and some of them are extraordinarily hot.  Single too.  I'm surrounded by so many people yet often feel alone.  Poor me huh?  Don't worry too much though.
  • I often wonder if I continue this blog for the right reasons.  Is it good for me, does it record my thoughts some how for safe keeping?  Or do I do it because I love the attention and the advice?  
  • I've been called "adorable" many times over lately in the past 6 months.  Women who barely meet me use the word.  Is that good?  Do I want to be adorable?  Maybe I want another adjective like "insatiable"?  I don't know.  How about "fucking hot"?  Too much?
  • My new AM woman is really cute.  Her body is just like the woman I posted like 2 or 3 posts ago.  I want that.  I like a woman I can pick up and pin against a wall.   She's super funny too.  We're meeting for the 2nd time tomorrow and I know it will be stepped up in terms of something physical.  Perhaps a kiss?  Maybe more.  It's not really defined in terms of how fast it needs to go.  Marathon . . .  or a sprint?  I'm not sure and it's the mystery that is so fun.
  • I feel some level of guilt for not tending to my blog regularly, or paying attention to others.  
  • I still love beer, perhaps more than the normal guy my age.  
  • My home is perfectly divided. I have my own room, and the kids are happy in their respective rooms as well.  My former spouse has the master bedroom so she can't complain too much since that's the nicest room in the house.  Neither she or I have ever had our own rooms before.  We've always shared with someone.
  • Ex-Wifey has had some girlfriends sleeping over recently and these girls are super hot.  They'll often sleep in her bed with her.  I imagine that both of them come in my room together in the middle of the night to quench their thirst for my cock and yet somehow it hasn't happened, and trust me, it never will, and I'm ok with that. A guy can fantasize right?  
  • Sabrina was over at my house last weekend, late, late at night.  Everyone was gone.  I haven't had a woman in a long time and it felt wonderful.  We kissed each other all over for a long time and eventually she decided to take me into her mouth.  She took all of me, and then some.  It was immensely pleasurable.  Next time its her turn.
  • I've been talking to a woman for about a month now that I find extremely attractive.  She's really got me kinda wound up.  If she's anything in real life like she in on the phone or on email, I could really get into the idea of a normal relationship.  Normal, monogamous, and somewhat healthy.  No?  Yea, I miss being loved, as in adored, and worshiped.... even if just for a moment.  I'll take it.  But I'll most likely give as much if not more of it back.
  • Just bought a memory foam mattress, and yet I wonder if I want my bed to remember everything that takes places there??  hhhhmmmm (pondering)
Cheers Everyone

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Discovering You - Discovering Me

I've gotten a lot of really good advice lately about my relationship strategy, or my "fucking system".  Some of these personal messages have been long, but really well written and thought out.  At times I ask myself what the fuck did I do to deserve such attention.  I'm not sure, but I gladly accept it.  Thank you for doing that, and thank you for being so honest (you all know who you are).  I've been applying some of that advice.  I'm glad to say that I feel as though its working.  No complaints here.

My 6th AM date is scheduled for this weekend.  It's either date #6 or #7, and it's with someone in my town.  It was a year ago that I had an AM date with someone here locally, and I'm very happy to say that she and I are still close friends.  This new girl and I have been corresponding and it's a lot of the usual, but I've toned down  what I would normally say at this point.  I'm holding back a lot of info which feels great and stirs up more mystery about me.

In talking to this fair maiden, I thought about why people need to cheat, or perhaps, why they have an open marriage, get a divorce, or even why some stay single forever.  It's about discovery.  It's about being discovered, in many ways, over and over again, and it's about being the discoverer.  It isn't just about sex, it's much more than that, and in many cases sex isn't even the best part about it.  Perhaps this is the age old question, " Are we humans meant to be monogamous?"  I'm not going to dive into that though.

To discover someone, and to be discovered is about attraction, and about intimacy.  It's also affection, or simply the touch of another human being.  It can be soft, or sweet, and simple as a kiss.  But it can also be about discovering anew ones body, to find chemistry and passion.  I think this is what drives many married people to boredom.  I said many....not all.  I get bored with routine.  I want something new, I want to discover and be discovered all over again.  This is what I love about all of my experiences.  Surprise me, or give me something unexpected.  It doesn't mean we don't love our primary partners, or take anything away from them but there comes a time when we want something that we don't have, we want to explore, to seduce someone, and/or be seduced by someone else.

Look at all of the great explorers from the past, from our world history.  These guys never discovered one place and just sat there chilling till their deaths.  Discovery and exploration were in their blood.  That's how I feel about my theory.  Are we meant to stay with the same person forever?  (oops, that's not what this post is about).   I want to get chills with that new person, I want my heart to thump loudly, and when we kiss I want it to last forever, but hey, I don't want to settle there in that new town for the rest of my life, I want to go out and get those chills all over again.  

Marco Polo inspired many like Columbus and others in their quests to explore the earth, the world.  I too am inspired as well, by the likes of all of you bloggers to explore my sexual world, to discover new people, new places, and to have new adventures.  I also enjoy being discovered myself.  Shall I leave you a map to my bedroom, and/or a map of my body?  Well there no is map for my body.  Not until you discover it yourself.

"Land Ahoy hot bitches!"  lol

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Divorced and Forced

Holy shit, I'm not the only one living like this.  It's good to know there are others I suppose.  Two nights ago I had some ideas about this trend, and perhaps a way to have a business based on these concepts.  Divorced and living together in the same home.  Well, in my case, I'm not forced to live in the same house with my spouse, but to move out would mean everyone has to lower their standard of living.  It also means that I don't get to be surrounded by my kids and see them everyday.  That would be devastating for me and for them.  Sometimes when I'm away from them for 2 or 3 days I really  miss them and they miss me too.  So no, I'm not gonna have a custody battle when it isn't necessary and this living arrangement isn't for forever.  Thank Gawd!!

Oh, if you're living in this kind of arrangement too, and if you're a hot woman, in southern California, well we should meet.  I want to go over my ideas with you, and maybe have a glass of wine while we explore.  haha!!  I'm working on exploiting all angles now.