AM date #5 proceeded Saturday afternoon and I was anxious in a good way. Yes, this time I didn't forget to have lunch and I was feeling pretty good. We met at a coffee shop and talked for a little while. The conversation was nice. We've talked a lot on the phone and from email for about 7 months, and we finally were meeting. Crazy huh? Investing months of time, with an occasional text or email here or there. Well much like my last AM date this woman was married and in an open marriage. So far so good being that I prefer this kind of arrangement/friendship/relationship over a single woman.
We drove to another location and hung out together just talking and getting to know each other. Was she hot? Sort of. When she smiled she was attractive, however from different angles I wasn't at all attracted to her. All I could think about was "don't settle for someone for whom you are not totally physically attracted to". I've been posting these kinds of warnings for myself on this blog for sometime now.
She talked a lot and at one point I was thinking that she's really talking too much and not really listening or laughing at my jokes. Does that matter in the grand scheme of things when I really want to do is maybe fuck her? Yes, and no, but there has to be both physical chemistry and that mental spark, and both were a little bit lacking.
So, back to the drawing board where I continue to fantasize about about everything I want in partner and what I'm looking for. Yes, if this were a movie it would be a lot like Weird Science, where I could design everything, a la carte style, the perfect partner. Although a little bit of unpredictability is nice too. How would I design that? hhmmmm
Where are you woman? Where are you women who are "attached" but looking for something fun on the side, looking for a friend-with-benefits, or a fuck-buddy? Where are the women that are in an open marriage in my town?
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